Struggles of yesterday I have slept off and then sweat off outside working in the yard. I try to not agonize over the schedule for the week. There’s nothing I can do about it… So I breathe!
This evening and planning tomorrow is all that is really relevant at this point. That and the 75 tadpoles my children brought home today 😂 seriously I need something else to tend to right? Lol SMH……. Ohhhhhh how I love my children and the joy they have over small things.
Being a single mom never has a dull moment…!
As I set here there is a smile,
Insind the stabbing pain you will never see,
I walk away they come,
Empty, no one can touch me I am so far away
I hear everyone
No one can hear the screaming and crying pain deep within
It cries tears that could flood the planes
You see nothing
I reach out with subtle words you never hear
I am alone
With my tears
I’m inbetween games setting in my car… Hiding. From what? Idk mostly myself I think. It’s been a really rough year.
I applied to college again. Got in everywhere had everything straight and WHAMMM life hits me in the face and reminds me who’s really in control. Sooooo…. I opted for distance courses which didn’t work either with the hey mommys, mom I forgot, Im sick, and I have a game or I have practice.
Yeah I am a failure in your eyes (even with a degree and a board certified license) yet I can’t do any better because its parent party of 1!!!
The fighting has been rough. Your words cut me into pieces. Heck yeah I am a looser. I have lost everything except my faith in God.
My faith hasn’t kept me from sliding backwards some. Loosing has taken its toll on me. I battle back which keeps me above water….. It’s the days under without breathing that hurts.