After months in the new place I took my frustration out on the bedroom and cleaned it. Surprisingly it only took about 2 hours. Idk why now… I guess just straightening up messes before I go.
It’s only a matter of time. I am weak and becoming weaker. My legs can’t walk through this much longer and my heart is slowing down. I find myself staring for long periods of time at nothing. Fantasies about days that are no longer pain filled. I want to not be the inconvenience in everyone’s life.
So I will soon be gone…. when that time comes put me in the black dress I laid out. And know I will always love you and I am very sorry for being such a problem filled life for you………
All of you.