A letter to her rapist

My daughter began to change. At first it was wanting privacy I believed it to be normal teenage angst. Then the attitudes set in which seemed off putting but it increasingly got worse along with the anger. I randomly went through her phone but could not find anything out of place. I dug thru her social media, texts and calls and always came up empty handed. Until the day I had her phone and she received a message on snapchat which asked if she would be at her dads soon so they could hook up. I knew something was severely wrong at this point. After many meetings with local and state police, the FBI as well as US Marshalls the pieces started to fall together. The rape and molestation of my daughter was uncovered.

This man deceived my child. He made up a name and said he was a teenager. My daughter was 12 years old at the time they started to talk. He was very aware of her age. He told her he loved her more than anyone. He lied to and manipulated her.

On her 13th birthday, he drove to her fathers house and again via snapchat let her know he was there to give her a birthday present of $50. Instead of the $50 he told her she was a big girl now while he began to take off her clothes and despite her telling him no he proceeded to molest and rape my child.

You were bigger and stronger than my little girl. She was so scared she told you no but knew you would overpower her and maybe even hurt or kill her at that point. You not only took her virginity but you took her sense of security. She was too young and naive to realize there was an evil human waiting to exploit her for their own sick sexual gratification.

She ended up having severe anxiety and depression. I had to hide all of the knives and medications in the home. I sat up day and night listening and watching her making sure she was ok for months on end. To this day I dont rest well for worry about her safety and security. My daughter will have to continue to have testing for sexually transmitted diseases for years to come because of you.

She again just had her birthday. She had finally turned a corner thanks to intensive therapy. That was until her birth month came. That’s when the anxiety and depression hit again. It was a reminder of what you had done to her and everything that she lost. It was a reminder for our whole family.

She didn’t just relive it that day. She has nightmares often. I have seen the fear in her eyes when she sees vehicles that look like the ones you drove to rape her or when she sees someone that looks or sounds like you. She knows you are incarcerated but she has to remind herself that during those times. Even then it takes a while for her to calm down.

You didn’t just take her virginity you took a part of her life forever. You took my happy, loving, sweet and innocent girl and destroyed her temporarily.

I say temporarily because she is the strongest, bravest and most resilient girl I know. In a years time she has picked herself up and finally started to begin live again. She finally goes out of the house without that look of anxiety and fear.

She has lost so much by your hands. I nearly had to quit nursing school. I also too went thru a horrible period of depression and anxiety along with major panic attacks because I was unable to find your trail and stop you from destroying my daughter and my family’s lives. My youngest daughter had to also go into therapy and now also has panic attacks often.

The world is not safe with you in it. You have done this to girls and women of all ages. You had a wife and a family. You have destroyed every single one of those people. You knew to use Snapchat you knew it wouldn’t be traced as long as your victims didn’t save anything. Without that there was no proof you even existed. You methodically chose the weakest of the weak. You exploited those weaknesses to make you look better, richer, more loving and more caring. You understood every move you made. You have no sympathy not even for your own child who one day will be faced with the challenges of dodging perverse adult men and women just like yourself.

I ask the courts for the safety of other females of all ages to give this man the maximum sentence allowed by law. Help to save children that would be in harms way if this man were out on the streets. There is no age at which individuals such as him are safely integrated into society.