Her father acts as if she is his property. Yes she’s not legally an adult yet and ai truly believe that she should have rules. However, all the rules in the world is not going to provide a better outcome. He’s upset, angry, bitter, hurt, and ready to revolt.
She doesn’t speak up for herself much. She won’t tell him how she truly feels. I don’t want to play games as I did before.
They told me one thing then told him and the judge another. I have came to terms with the outcome after all these years. That doesn’t mean he gets to control them. I am not a bad mother and he can’t keep them from me. I am going to have to go back to court to fight yet another battle just to make my children’s lives livable.
Part of me is salty. I have said to them numerous times this was what you wanted. (Not the best mother moment I am aware.) Part of me is crushed. Seeing my babies wanting so much more.
But today is a special day. Today is her birthday. I have done everything I could to make her entire weekend as special as possible. She wanted to stay the night and she got cussed at and grounded for yet another week.
Today was a milestone of going for her learners. (Looks like we are gonna have to retry that milestone next week) Her heart rate is back up and had to have blood work. Her father I suppose is jealous and doesn’t want me involved in her healthcare which he has no legal grounds to do. Her disease could kill her he calls her fat and lazy. Graves’ disease is not something to joke about or talk horrible things to people due to the side effects.
He is not the worst dad he does love his kids. He doesn’t know how to do anything except control them and talk to them like dirt. So What do I do? Do I go to court? Do I lay back and let the cards fall where they may? I am in desperate need of advice.
Today I watched my birthday girl get destroyed by her father. I’m a wreck. I can’t save her so easily anymore. Yet I can do more than I am.
I Just Want To Survive 